My primary job for the past 18 years has been to be a mother. Now, I've been laid off without unemployment benefits! I realize that the whole purpose to my job was to raise an independent, well-rounded, functioning member of society and I think we have been successful. So, why was my heart was still broken? I had no idea that it would affect me that deeply. I had always joked how wonderful it would be not to worry about where he is, what time he's coming home, etc., etc. That part has been somewhat of a relief, but I find myself pausing to say a quick prayer every time I hear an ambulance go by.
I am entering a different phase of my life and I am learning to embrace it. I realize that I'll never stop missing him, and it seems to get easier with time. Traveling is now more of an option, as well as a list of many other things. I have decided that I am just going to have to take it one day at a time. I can now focus more on Loretta, and I guess that's a good thing. It has to be.
I've always wondered how hard it must be for those with just one when that child leaves home. I have 6 and have always joked I would offer them early retirement to get them out I'd the house sooner.
ReplyDeleteWell my oldest moved down to Florida last august. I was devastated. Hr and I were always tight. I always assumed he'd stay close to home. It has gotten easier. My job is done and its his time now.
I feel your pain. But I also feel your joy in "mission accomplished". Time for us TP let loose of the pretty balloons and watch them fly.